...fine line between insanity and genius

where have i been? eh?

she's in my head. the problem is, i know i'll never get her. and maybe that's really just my deep rooted low self esteem talking, but i'm not so sure anymore. i've been fucking around too long and now i've slacked myself out of contention. someone else gets to hold her hand. someone else gets to write her lovely letters. watch tv and just couch all day. i'm burned out and wasted. just another genius with nothing to show for it. so much to give, but no one to share with. shite.

where have i been? i've been cowering in cold air-conditioned rooms, thinking of this girl and singing dashboard lyrics like i wrote them. she's a fire and she's got to me. and now i'm doing all that i can to keep her from sinking deeper into my mind. "i think she's getting over me, but i just don't know if i want her to."

scooby

first day of summer school.

lakers, rush, mim, races, nerd, thai village

thursday i ate at koyoto japanese restaurant. it was good but expensive... and the fucking fire alarm kept going off. fuck that.

scoobs.

tuesday we saw beth orton @ the metro. great show. today the lakers beat the nets. surprise, surprise. earlier, we dropped lola tentay off at the airport after eating lunch at tita sofie's. woo hoo. exciting days...

saturday i went to on the border to see kenny. we went to st. charles to some bar for some drinks. jay and i went to the dance club next door. then we all went to cadillac ranch for some pool and cowboy hats and i got home at like 4:00am. sunday all i did was watch the lakers game. monday all i did was watch ai , k-pax , on the line , and serendipity while doing laundry, cutting my hair, and cleaning my room. it's hard, was i a slacker or was i busy?

yesterday we had a memorial mass for my mom at my house. a priest came over and we prayed in the living room. then we had a great meal and watched the lakers vs. kings. chuck and i went to the city to hang with kenny and jason for a little bit. we ate at china town and then i got home at like 5am. fun. (sarcastic)

sunday i didn't do shit. i sat around and watched rollerball and sorority boys on vcd with the guests. monday we went to mass at the cemetery for memorial day. we then had a huge brunch at chuck's house. then we went to the city so that chuck could let cammy move some shit into the apartment. we ate sushi at pacific cafe, watched a little basketball, then went to black rock to watch cammy's friend, liam play some acoustic guitar. tuesday met up with jim and roy to discuss mim and its current status. phuc was there for a moment, but she went to work out and we went to eat sushi on algonquin. we spent most of the time talking about the clones and all that jazz and while i felt like a dork at times, it was a great conversation. wednesday jim and roy finally meet cammy. we exchange pleasantries and then leave to go shoot some outdoor setup shots for girl/boy . we end up at navy pier and we shoot some skyline shots. as it turns out, it gets pretty dark pretty fast. so we eat g

what a fucking night. sox game so we started by taking the el to the sox game. it was dan, dave, chuck, and me. we got there at the top of the 4th, with the sox up 5 to 1, not that i give a shit about the sox or baseball for that matter. we met up with the crew, which was a good 25 or so guys. tauber's dad was there and he was hilarious. there was a fight in the stands and we all cheered. there were also many hotties walking around, prompting us to immediately decide to come to another sox game soon. yay. griffin's we took a very interesting el ride to get to the bar. dan and i were being very obnoxious. it was great. legerro got off the train a couple of stops early so that he could piss. haha! jon got us open bar from 10p-1am. we got hammered pretty fast. then the first stipper came and she was pretty good. she was actually serving drinks for everyone completely naked. she gave a couple of lap dances. she was great. then dallas showed up and she rocked the house. she was gor

so last night all you need to know is that we hit club o and skybox . o has much talent, especially for the half puerto-rican half japanese/hawaiian princess known as veronica. skybox sucks, but they did have free pizza. so i didn't get in until 4:00am this morning and i slept until about 1pm. fuck. my head hurts... and now, i'm going back to chicago to celebrate rob lightfoot's bachelor party. we've got a sox game, a bar, and some strippers. it can't get much better than that. god help us.

the day has started out slowly, but danny belmont just called me and it looks like we're hitting is tonight... uh oh. so what did i do? slept in until about 11am. had a dl smoke. checked email. ate leftover breakfast. watched crazy/beautiful . nice little ditty. and now i'm blogging and it's 2pm. fuck. i'm gonna get dressed and take my granny to the supermarket.

this afternoon i went to lunch with stephanie. we ate at some strange pancake house on 25. it was mighty good. today is a boring day... a tragedy for blogging.

here we go, catching up again. monday is there really much to say? oh. i took the guests to woodfield to buy some shiz. i spent some money at the gap clearance rack. and i bought some wrist wear from some cutie punks at hot topic. then we went over to the loews to watch attack of the clones , a horrible title for a pretty good film. yoda is hilarious and the other fight scenes were intense... the storyline needs some work, but other than that, it was enjoyable. later in the evening, i went to gameworks to celebrate eric's 21st birthday and graduation. a whole slew of kids where there. the best part was watching derek play the drums and angelo playing starwars. good times. tuesday didn't do crap. everyone was pretty lazy. i went to lunch with asian tommy. we ate sushi all the way in st. charles. wtf? anyways, it was good and cheap, so i'm not gonna complain. i still spent like $30. but whatever. then i went home and took a nap. connie called me from schoo

friday so to end friday night's affairs, i met up with chuck at dooley's, where kelly and rob were meeting some friends. we played a little ntn, and talked about the bachelor party and other nonsense. kelly and chuck were hungry, so we ate over at steak and shake on barrington. i wasn't hungry, but i ended up eating a shitload anyways. fuck. kelly and rob didn't believe us when we said that it was cash only. they apologized many times while chuck and i paid the bill... which was our pleasure. saturday last minute decision to attend the q101 jamboree, due to the free tickets aquired by chris through his work. my favorite band was dashboard confessional, but i enjoyed hoobastank, tenacious d, the strokes, and quarashi was ok. thursday was okay too, and i saw a little bit of unwritten law, but the cold day kept me from fully appreciating all the bands. we even stopped in the sonic boom tent to hear terri bristol and other djs spin. weee! later on, we met jim for

fuck. so i didn't get much accomplished on that list from yesterday. i did the garbage and i cleaned the kitchen , but that's about it. oh shit, i went to gameworks . you know that you're really bad when social activity is on your "to do" list, just so you can feel like you got some shit done. fuck again. so today i didn't cross anything off either. i spent some time on the web. watched some food tv. ate a late lunch and dinner at my granny's place. woo hoo! i wrote an email to the ecc kids, because i miss them so much. fuck, i can't stand this down time... i need a job. i think i'm going to tgi friday's to play some ntn.

slow start so today i slept in til about 11:30am. i guess it is nice not having class. for breakfast i had a camel special light and some orange juice. thing is, i really have to get some shit done today and here's the agenda... - apply for scholarships - clean kitchen & wash dishes - do 2 loads of laundry - pay bills - do the garbage and recycleables - hang out at lava lounge or gameworks what a rough life i live. heh. i really miss my ecc buddies. sigh.

last day one last class. one last critique for the semester. it went great and i got an a in the class. some how, i managed to ask rosy to go to lunch with brian and me. as it turns out, tommy, asian tommy, and andy were to busy to go to sushi for lunch today. cryke. we planned for lunch on tuesday, so we'll see. hugs and kisses so on the way out, i ran into shanny and jeanne. i gave them both big hugs and told them that i'd miss them. i invited them to colonial cafe to join in, if they had time. i'm pretty sad that i won't be seeing them for a while. coloniel cafe so after picking up smokes, i end up being the first cat at the cafe. brian shows up and we wait a bit, to give rosy and the other girls some time to show up. after about 30 minutes, we order. it's great talking to brian. he's open-minded, yet firm in his own beliefs. he says a great quote... "pay now and party later... or party now and pay later". very interesting. rosy show

second chance to make the same mistake twice so i'm outside, smoking with nick, when she steps out there to join us... i was a blubbering fool. argh! anyways, i did find out that she'll be back in the fall taking digital photography with john, so i guess that i'll get a third chance some time down the road... sigh. in 100 we critqued the cubes and everyone really did do some amazing stuff and tina seemed to like everything. then we cleaned up the classroom. fun. jamie left early, so i wasn't able to wish her luck. sigh. i ate lunch with shannon and melissa at subway and it looks like we'll be keeping in touch. the last night class so there's this girl who has sat next to me every single day in 115 . her name is lisa. i could've sworn she was latina, but her last name is johnson. anyways, we've been pretty cool all semester. she told me (very early into meeting her) that she had a boyfriend and a 3 year old boy, so i never had any inclinatio

no rosy i woke up late. got to class late. worked on my project. rosy wasn't in class today. shite. invited brian and tom to sushi on wednesday. we'll have to see i guess. no mary well, 101 has come to a close too. no more mary. shite. no goodbye either. i said goodbye to pam, who really is a sweet lady. we cleaned the desks a little bit, but heather did the sink all by herself. lunch i had lunch with shanny and mel. we ate at the colonial cafe. mmm mmm good. we had some nice conversation, but nothing too deep. mel is trying to figure out her post high school life, and shanny... well, shanny is too, but her situation isn't as complex as mel's is. whatever. it was just nice spending time with them.

today is mother's day so i drove home at like 2:30am on sunday morning. got up and picked up my granny to go to church at 11:00am. we met up with tita lily, chuck, and robyn and went to palmer's for brunch. mmm mmm good. we stopped by the cemetery to pray for my mom and lolo. the rest of the day has consisted of watching tv and taking naps. i had a&w for dinner and now i'm watching the cosby show on nick at night. what the fuck is wrong with this picture?

last night it poured like pussies and bitches last night, but i still ventured to the city. chuck and i got to big wig at like 11:00 or so. irene met us at the door and she was pretty fucked up. we wanted to say hi to carol, but she was surrounded by fellas. so chuck and i got some drinks and sat in the back by the dance floor. ana, ciarra's friend came up to us and said hi. it turns out that she knows carol from way back. she actually remembered our names. the bitch anyways, irene comes up with her friend liz, then ditches her to go to the bathroom. chuck and i try to make small talk, but liz is all about being a bitch. i should've told her to go away, but i didn't know who she was with and i'm not one to get my ass kicked. so finally, liz just gets up, and chuck and i both agree that she's totally whack. irene comes up and i tell her that liz is a bitch... big mistake. she freaks out and we begin a yelling match and since irene always has to be right, she

friday recap so i went to class at like 9:00am so that i could work on my cube. luke showed part of the movie he's working on. jeanne liked the sticker i made of her. shannon finished her cube. jamie and nick ditched. cassie was working on some photo project. brandon showed up and picked burt reynolds as the subject of his cube. i said goodbye to brandon as i'm not sure i'll see him before he leaves for the summer. went to have lunch at granny's. diana and jonathan have arrived. i took a nap and then went with my pops to enterprise to get a car. no rest for the wicked. i had to take everyone to tita mommy's house before dinner at lou malnati's. dinner was great. chuck and i went back to meet belmonte at his house. we drove to chicago to go to kathy's birthday party. we bought her a huge card, a "you go girl" keychain, and some birthday toy set. monika, cheryl, michelle, crissy, danielle and kathy's mom, were all there. we ended up le

munchkins so i brought in munchkins for the class. which was great. jeanne sent the picture, but put the word porn in the subject. brandon, jeanne, and i had a long smoke break. stephanie and i finished our projects early so that we could ditch out and catch ihop thursday. mmm mmm good. jino and jean are here now. yay! jonathan and diana are coming tomorrow.

slowly but surely so in 104 today, i talked to rosy even more than ever before. i was actually in class on time and i got some shit done! pretty decent. the clowns, plus andy and rosy, and i went to the cafeteria to get some ecc specials and coffee. mmm mmm good. 101 was pretty good too. stephanie gave me her usual shit about mary, we went around and showed our stupid letterheads, and when it got to mary, i shot her a smile and a cheesy "rock and roll!". fuck. she left after the quiz, so i wasn't able to talk to her. poo. waiting for the bus was pretty cool. i made the kids laugh a little bit. complemented cassie on her photography, jeanne on her jeans, and some seniors on their portfolios. we talked about people i don't know... like robe and the schlagels. during open lab time i finished the base coat on my bloated project and worked a little on the edges. asian tommy, andy, and i planned a big sushi luncheon on wednesday next week. hopefully the plans go

showed up to 100 late, but no one seemed to notice. melissa is talking to me again, so i hope that everything is smoothed over. i didn't want to show jeanne her picture, but she saw it and cut it out and ate it... literally. the rest of class was spent messing around with my project and talking to jeanne. shannon found the picture of the broccoli, so i kept it. i'm a dork. 204 was basically stressing to finish the cd project. i talked to stephanie a little bit, but i really needed to get some shit done. i used the old "up dog" joke on her. she fell for it and people laughed. thus is the story of my lame life. i'm going to 115 . catch you on the flipside.

ugh. i always seem to act like a little dork when she smiles at me. weekend recap so i fucking hate doing this recap, recap shit. but here goes anyways. friday i didn't know what the fuck to do. all i knew is that the week was strange and i needed to get away. so, to the city i went. so, dave kim, chuck, and i went to the museum of contemporary art or the mca for first fridays. it was pretty sweet because there were some mad hotties all dressed up... too bad they were all pretentious looking biatches. of course, i never talked to them, so they were probably cool. anyways, they were spinning some jungle when we came in. pretty nice. dave and i ate some of the free wolfgang puck hors o'devours and froze our asses off on the patio. it was cool because we saw leah (and her lugnut), indian jay, tam, ciara (and crew), and ann (a girl i have yet to meet) and roy and mark made a late apperance after a happy hour with the french co-workers. we walked around the museum and so

today, i went to see the kids so that i could take their pictures. i drew on nick's clock and mounted some old illustrator projects. i think that melissa is mad at me because i think she's uptight. jamie is messed up because of all the meds she's on. shannon is her usual bubbly self and jeanne is busy with her 101 project. cassie can be really sweet when she wants to, but also really evil if she's mad. i'm hoping that the pictures turn out so that my project will rock. we'll just have to wait though. crap, i should turn the pictures in. i'm heading to the city soon, hopefully to go to "first fridays" at MCA. if not, whatever, i just need to drink.

what a day first of all, i missed wednesday, but whatever. thursday was the day of days. it started out like this... 100 was the usual ho, hum, didn't get shit done, kinda day. but brandon and i were having fun just making stupid noises and all that jazz. shannon and jeanne weren't around, so it was less noisy than usual. brandon and i compensated by talking non-stop... whatever. no big deal. but then, after class, i went outside for a little smoke break... mary walked out and said hi as she raced to her car and i think for the first time in my life i said, "hi, mary!", and actually acknowledged that i knew her name. she's got the most beautiful smile. shit! then, another cutie that i've been noticing lately was walking into the building and she gave me that sort of half-wave that says, "i-don't-know-you-but-you-know-my-friends-so-i'm-being-polite", and i just wasn't having it, so i said, "hey! you know, tommy has never int

fucking wednesday and i've finally decided to post a summary of the weekend's events. sigh. so what did i end up doing on friday ? jack shit. i brought my art supplies with the intention of doing some art work in the city, but as it turns out, i just ended up chilling with chuck and catching a late dinner at hong min's in china town. after some partying with his french co-workers, roy ended up joining us, a drunken mess. we were gonna go to some lounge to cap off the night, but we ended up going back to chuck's place to drink some brews and discuss how roy was going to tell al about his feelings. we crashed at 2am. saturday came and it was complete laziness. chuck and i were driving all around the city, looking for a place to have a late lunch. after going crazy thinking about some place to go, we decided on going to pequod's on clybourne. we had our typical sausage, mushroom, and spinach deep dish pizza, and some garlic bread. we watched a little bit of p

lazy fridays. i made a late breakfast for me and pops today. i cleaned up my portfolio. i watched my tape of my thursday night shows. i updated my web page. i checked email. and now i'm fucking blogging. will i get off my ass and do something productive today? the magic eight ball says... "not likely". fuck.

before i forget... felicity was a well written show. forget the target audience. the dialogue was always crisp and the story lines were surprisingly intense. so i'm watching last night, assuming that it's the last show, and it ends brilliantly! the show began with felicity following her high school crush to new york and it ended with her high school crush following her back to cali. fuck. a sweet, solid ending... or so i thought. so at the end of the show, i'm like, "cool." then the voice-over comes on and says, "stay tuned for scenes from the next felicity." and some i'm thinking, what the fuck? and after a couple of commercials, the voice-over comes up, and basically they've shot the last four episodes under the premise, "what if felicity chose noel over ben?" well, if you don't watch this show, then i won't bore you with shit, but all of sudden, a whole new world has opened up, and i'm curious to see how it will change t

i am hungry. so here's some weird shit. i had this dream about hanna last night. she's walking past me in some tunnel or some shit and then the tunnel becomes so small that we have to basically squeeze past each other to get by. we don't do anything, but we're touching and staring at each other. then her mom is right around the corner, and i'm freaking out because i don't want her to think i'm hitting on her daughter. it was pretty intense. fuck. anyways, the kids are at the tables when i get in the building. i'm not in 100 for more than 10min when tina asks me to help out connie with the display cases. it takes me a good 30 minutes to get everything up... i don't realize until very late that she wanted them up so that the "fund allocation people" could see the sort of projects that all their spending has helped to create. shit. after i'm done i don't do much of anything in class. fuck. we take the usual smoke break a little

slow days, slow days. i'm tired as fuck. 104 was absolutely, positively sad. we worked on our projects, or didn't. me and the boys took a break to the cafeteria. i got the ecc special. mmm... like an egg mcmuffin. and then at the end of class, there was a debate about religion and all that jazz. it was interesting, yet ridiculous. argh! 101 was more of the same boring madness. pam is great, but it was just way drawn out. stephanie did not show up, but i did get a chance to see mary. ah, heaven. jamie came in late and sat next to me. she looked tired as fuck too. jeanne ditched high school, but came to ecc... interesting. we then went and took a little 20min smoke break. everyone then basically left, but i waited with shannon until the bus came. i went home and passed out for 2 hours, ate cereal, and then came back to ecc. it was pouring like a motherfucker today. saw an accident. now i'm in class with mary ann. hanna is sitting behind me. wink wink. i swear

ah, the usual 15 minutes late to 100 , but as usual i was not in trouble. got very minimal work done, spending some money and time at the copy machine. then, at 11:30a, we went for a smoke break, that would last 45min. it turns out that ryan is also a virgo, which i guessed, and i guess that brandon is a libra, although i couldn't figure him out. we told some stories, but nothing too exciting. eh, just a boring day today. hrumph. i'm guessing more of the same to come in 204 . hopefully stephanie will keep me awake.

poo poo weather. in 104 i talked to rosemary for a little bit. she's warming up i think. we didn't do much of anything... just watched some samurai jack and i finished my project for 101 . brian, tom, and i went to get coffee, not much excitement there. tom and i talked about hanging with each other's crews... so apparently, if i bring the asian women, he'll bring the anglos. wink, wink!? after class, i went downstairs for a smoke break with the kids. i got jamie to give me a kiss on the cheek. she's just too adorable. damn. in 101 , pam gave a speech about logos and we turned our frame ads in. class was over in about 15 minutes. but she did give us an assignment, so a couple of us stayed (shannon, jeanne, melissa, jo ann). anyways, melissa's long distance boyfriend, geoff was around, but i guess no one really wanted to talk to him. he seems like a nice enough guy, so whatever. but i found out that melissa met him over the internet, so there must be so

missed sunday by a couple of minutes. btw. why has the weather been so shitty? saturday started off pretty lazy-like. i started moving around 1pm or so. did some laundry and got ready for winston's wedding reception in alsip. i drove down there a little late and walked in the hall right after the wedding party was announced. jen and rj are always great conversation. dada is 20 freakin' years old already?!? the whole family looks great and it's great to be around some people i haven't seen in a long fucking time. little jennilyn is so cute, but that's not enough to get me to stay. i was kinda hoping that there would be some cutie latinas walking around, but no such luck. how about some cutie filipinas? not really. so i decided to leave around 9pm so that i wouldn't miss more than half of the concert. well, it turns out that i only missed oakenfold. but luckily, that wasn't the best part of triple crown . i got in about 30 minutes before the chemical

on the surface of our one track minds, we hear 420 and always end up thinking the same fucking thing... puff, puff give . happy 420, friends.

so last night , danny belmont and i went to the big city to meet up with chuck, nate, kiran, and her half filipino friend, lindey. we met up at borderline for some drinky poo and waited for our 10:30 reservation at blue fin. some freaky cat was out side motioning at lindey, remarking that she had big boobs. nice. at blue fin, we met up with kiran's friend hanna, who became our server. apparently, she is filipino to. so then we eat some killer sushi and what not, and chuck gets a call from roy saying that he's going over to thirteen with carol, al, and ergelin. we finish dinner and head over, and guess what, the bouncer lets me in without carding me?!? strange and flattering. does he know me? dj mig was spinning at thirteen and we popped over and busted a few hellos. next thing you know, kathy uzelac is in the house, with her friend... sandy? or something. dan, thankfully, ends up talking to kathy for a long time, which is great because i just wasn't in the mood to catch

well, i didn't have to go in today, but i decided to get the outline done for my project in pam's class. of course the fact that the kids were gonna be there was an added bonus and more likely the main reason i went. nice to hang with the kids. had a nice smoke break with jamie, helped cassie with her project. nick, shannon, and jeanne got me a meatball sub. i finished some of my project. nick is working on some clock he plans to hang at his pad in the city. he's asking all of us to draw in it. nothing major went on today. it was just nice to see everyone. hmmm... who's that cutie in the airbrushing class next door? interesting. tonight danny boy and i are heading to the big city... who knows what's gonna happen.

yay! finally i get a chance to talk to jamie again. such a sweetheart. i was beginning to think that she was cranky. 100 was pretty fun today. we came in 15min late, but didn't miss anything. critique was pretty cool... as the class was very nice about my piece. the highlights include nick's mystery fruit, a lime i think. i was doing my best to hide the fact that he had no idea what it was himself. a quince, a comquiat? also, jamie's "the great oak" was hilarious. not only did she put the text into her piece, she also had some really jacked up bead. funny shit. all in all great work from the whole class. smoking break was even better than all the laugh riots going on in class. i pulled a roy and guessed 4 signs. shannon - taurus, nick - virgo, jeanne - cancer, jamie - gemini. i had a hard time getting cassie and melissa, both capricorns... who's a capricorn? it was good bonding time... a true zen experience. my homework is to come back on monday and share

so check this shit. today, i walk into 203 and guess who's sitting behind my normal seat... yup, the girl i've been staring at all semester... the teacher's daughter... hanna. nice. too bad that i'm too scared to look over her way. she's pretty cute. oh wait. there's just one thing... um, nevermind. we're out early, so i'm peace out! time for dawson's creek, muthafuckas!

i showed up about 7 minutes late to 104 today. crap. i didn't get in with enough time to mount my project. it's cool though, as i think tommy won't take off points. critique went well and rosemary even spoke today. she has a great project going, in fact she's got some sweet stuff from other classes... in fact, she is sweet stuff! i was a little nervous about 101 but luckily, pam said it was okay that we didn't have our final projects done. sweet. stephanie thinks that i should really talk to mary and she even said that mary was looking at me while we were doing our write ups. ahhh. is she just fucking with me? i can count two times that mary and i caught each others' eyes. what will i do? good times with brandon, jeanne, and nick. just a bunch of smokers being complete slackers and me being a complete goofball. i was doing the planet of the apes thing on the garbage can outside.

shit. it's supposedly 83 degrees in some parts of illinois today. it feels wonderful. it's a great day to pimp in the del sol. i came to school at like 7:30 this morning so i could finish my 100 project... the artichokes. as it turns out, so many people didn't show up that we didn't have the critique. that's pretty fucked up. no penalties either, but those who were finished got some extra credit. the only kids in today were brandon, jeanne, shanny, and melissa. everyone else just took the period off i guess. we ended up taking a long break, as usual, sitting in the warm spring sun. it was a little breezy out, but it felt really nice. one funny story is that i was talking to brandon about that cutie latina chick with the pony tail and he told me to point her out sometime... as we left for the break, i saw her and i pointed and whispered, "that's her!" just my luck, she turns and sees me and i run away, like a little baby. carol isn't in this w

yet again, another beautiful day. hot and muggy. i came in late to 104 but as soon as i settled in, i was working hard on my project. talked to rosemary a little bit, she's too cute. and of course, i was the only sucker who brought cds to class, so everyone thought i was a freak for playing bjork. luckily, when i played punk rock, tommy wanted a copy, so he agreed that he wouldn't count me late for today. cool. and then there was 101 . apparently, pam's dog got hit by a car and so she had to take him to the vet. well, i'm not sure if that's true or not, but i ended up staying in class anyways, working on my artichoke project for tina's class. it's cool though, because mary showed up for a second, so i got a chance to see her today. also, stephanie and melissa kept me company, so it wasn't too boring. oh btw, another one bites the dust... i gave melissa the story about how i ended up at ecc. cryke.

nice day. beautiful day. so last night... saturday i met up with chuck and we ate at some cajun restaurant in arlington heights. great crawfish etiouffe (sp?), but anyways... it took a little bit to get to the city, but we got to the apartment and watched the opening segment of snl. the rock sucks. so around 11pm, we hit bar thirteen and meet up with ciara and the crew. jamie and emer, jenny and kristine, chris and steve, and a little later, melanie,tam, rebecca, and regina showed up. all in all, a fun relaxing time. the bartenders sucked, slow as fuck. but i got in some good conversations with melanie, stared openly at tam's boobs, and danced with rebecca and regina. ciara's sister was giving me the eye and so i gave her some smiles back. the biggest disappointment was not seeing ann. so crap. what a waste. today was cool though, because the weather was beautiful. chuck and i walked to north side and met up with jim and roy. we had a nice brunch with our favorite s

so yesterday was shite. stayed in and watched the korean gem... "shiri". it was crap. i gave it a "c", a "c" for crap! maybe it is the greatest grossing korean movie of all time and that's great, but it doesn't change the fact that it's crap. this afternoon i went to the library to do research for my marketing class. lots of cuties roaming around. knowing my luck, they're probably 13 year olds. sick. when i got home, the del sol was supposedly fixed. so i took it out for a spin (so that i could return shiri) with the top down. it's not fixed. they just resurfaced the break pads, plus i still need to give her an oil change. shit. i'm about to bleach my hair into the unatural orange-gold that i enjoy so much. hopefully i get a chance to show some pretty ladies at thirteen tonight. i think ann is supposed to be there... will i talk to her tonight? tune in tomorrow for what i fear will be shitty news. ah yes, always good to th

crap. missed a day again. not like i did anything thursday night. thursday well, i didn't do much of anything wednesday night either. dawson's creek was a laugh riot. i must have clapped at every commercial. i did take a valerian root pill right before i went to bed however, and i'm guessing that's why i woke up at 10:30am this morning. by the time i got to 100 , it was around 11:45... usually around the time the kids and i take a little smoke break. to my dismay, no one was outside so i ventured to class, anticipating a lecture followed by me cowering with empty excuses. it didn't happen. i ran in, put my stuff down, and ran to the artograph where i traced the photocopied pictures of artichokes shannon bought me. cassie came by and she smelled great. happy vanilla day to me. stephanie came in too and we made plans to have another late lunch at ihop. unfortunately, the kids left while i was getting into my work, so i didn't really get to speak with them

104 why can't rosemary talk? she's so pretty that i'm afraid to look at her because she might catch me staring. her smile is so bright that i can see it in the corner of my eye, while i'm making sure not to look her way. i played my mix cd to the class and of course it had mixed reviews. now everyone thinks i'm stranger than i already was. 101 came in 10 minutes late... i'm such a slacker around the kids. mary was looking pretty nice in her pink top. i really hope i get to talk to her one of these days. the forecast looks cloudy. shannon was wondering if i would call her "girlfriend" again, i told her that she had to smell like vanilla. cassie did, so today she was my new girlfriend. class got out at 12 today, so i spent 40 minutes outside with shannon and jeanne. as they left to get on the bus, shannon asked if i had another class and i told her that i just liked hanging out with 'em. they both smiled and did the "awww" thing. ho

ah. early afternoon and i'm just starting to wake up. tina's class was spent in the usual fashion. me and the kids goofing off and talking nonsense. there is continuous banter about brandon's friend's brother... "oh, john." shannon was wearing vanilla lotion and it reminded me of old times. now the indside joke is me calling shanny my girlfriend. every day i grow more fond of these kids. it's gonna be hard not seeing them after this semester is over.

damn. i haven't blogged all weekend... must be a sign of a busy social schedule. or maybe i was just lazy. i'll opt for a combo of the two. here's a recap. thursday night the night began kind of late. chuck, dave, roy, and i went over to the lava lounge to catch a couple drinks. dave actually wanted to get a "special" muffin from the strange old woman who shows up every now and then. i tried one a week prior, so i knew that they were legit. she's a slick one, the muffin lady. she has a basket of baked goods, but when you pay her, she reaches into her mysterious purse for the plastic wrapped pastry. anyways, we left too early to see her (12:00am), but we had a great conversation about relationships (particularly dave's) and religion. ah, what a bunch of nerds. friday night most of the kids went to mia francesca's to eat savory italian and discuss chris's big news. the news? chris is planning to buy a condo in the heart of downtown c

finally... the week is over. whew. back to the weekend. and back to some sleeping. i'm beginning to sound like an old man, but i've really just been overwhelmed with projects as of late. well, today was a good day because i was able to catch an early dinner with stephanie... at my favorite local ecc hangout, ihop... with my favorite server, jennifer. kinda nice finally not having to eat alone, something that jennifer immediately pointed out as she took our order. i just don't know if it's a good thing or a bad thing. on one hand, jennifer remembers me. but on the other, she's seen me there alone quite often. she made a great comment after i asked if i could bum a smoke... "see... he's always forgetting something. last time it was a lighter, this time it's cigarettes... next time he'll probably forget his lips." interesting, very interesting. i think she likes me. and stephanie... well, she's a down girl, but she's got a man and i

crap, i know it's late, but i forgot to mention that yesterday was 04.03.02, which makes me laugh.

how did i make it through the day? i must've yawned 47 times today. i finally caught up with all of my art projects. i'm just hoping that after tonight i'll be caught up with my sleep. today was a 9. i had some conversation with the two quiet chicks who sit in the back... well sort of. ah, who am i kidding... i think i said "hey" and they just smiled. i'm a sucker for the blue eyes, or maybe just a sucker in general. oh, so there was this great moment in critique today. me and the kids play that circle game in class. the one where you make a circle with your index and thumb, and you try to get people to look at it so that you can slug them twice (then wipe). well, if you know the game, then you know that if a person breaks the circle with their finger, you're the one who gets slugged. in any case, if you don't know what i'm talking about, i'll explain some other time. so, after going through my critique i walked back to my seat and tried t

home again. safe and sound. my thoughts fall backwards into her eyes. an image of a laughing smile makes me wish things i cannot possibly have. and again i realize why i love school... i keep getting older and the girls stay the same age. well, not really, but, well yeah, really... shoot.

the beginning of a legacy ah... okay, for real now. this is the beginning of a new chapter in pico .plan writing. a daily injection of mundane thoughts that i feel the need to expel. i don't know where this will lead or where it will end, but i enjoy the thought of blogging on a frequent basis... anywhere. automobile crisis and boredom i'm stuck at ecc (woe is me), and i don't have anyone to smile at... except that girl at the other side of the computer lab, but she's not facing me, and every time she turns my way, my eyes divert back to the screen. sigh. who leaves their headlights on anymore? just me.

i'm so sleepy. but it's always good to see her smile and make her blush. ooo ooo! she is too cute!