the last public transmission... i hope

i think that this has to be the last entry about her.

we had a great conversation over milkshakes and steak burgers at the barrington/higgins steak and shake. hagrid was not present.

we talked until well past 4:00am. she is so beautiful.

i want to calm the fuck down, but you know how i am. a hopeless romantic. a dreamer. an overthinker. the more i try to relax, the worse it gets.

i'm convinced that we're on the same page, but i'm letting my guard down too fast. argh. it's so fucking hard. it was just last may that i first met this girl, and somehow, today i... well let's just say it feels a lot like fate that i'm writing this to you right now.

so anyways, she doesn't know about this blog... i think... and the closer i get to her, the more i'm beginning to realize that it's not fair for me to share these kind of thoughts with you. although it can be therapeutic.

i don't know where the story goes from here, but i'm excited and optimistic and scared and nervous all at once. unfortunately... i'll have to go it alone. (we'll see how long this lasts... me not blogging about it, i mean.)

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dk said…
as you venture down this path in your journey of life, just remember to be patient (something that i have to keep reminding myself) and be true not only to yourself but to her too.

it sounds like an exciting time for you. =)

~the universe provides everyone of us with a multitude of opportunities on a daily basis; we just have to listen~
1/14/2008 1:18 PM
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