...fine line between insanity and genius

lazy fridays. i made a late breakfast for me and pops today. i cleaned up my portfolio. i watched my tape of my thursday night shows. i updated my web page. i checked email. and now i'm fucking blogging. will i get off my ass and do something productive today? the magic eight ball says... "not likely". fuck.

before i forget... felicity was a well written show. forget the target audience. the dialogue was always crisp and the story lines were surprisingly intense. so i'm watching last night, assuming that it's the last show, and it ends brilliantly! the show began with felicity following her high school crush to new york and it ended with her high school crush following her back to cali. fuck. a sweet, solid ending... or so i thought. so at the end of the show, i'm like, "cool." then the voice-over comes on and says, "stay tuned for scenes from the next felicity." and some i'm thinking, what the fuck? and after a couple of commercials, the voice-over comes up, and basically they've shot the last four episodes under the premise, "what if felicity chose noel over ben?" well, if you don't watch this show, then i won't bore you with shit, but all of sudden, a whole new world has opened up, and i'm curious to see how it will change t...

i am hungry. so here's some weird shit. i had this dream about hanna last night. she's walking past me in some tunnel or some shit and then the tunnel becomes so small that we have to basically squeeze past each other to get by. we don't do anything, but we're touching and staring at each other. then her mom is right around the corner, and i'm freaking out because i don't want her to think i'm hitting on her daughter. it was pretty intense. fuck. anyways, the kids are at the tables when i get in the building. i'm not in 100 for more than 10min when tina asks me to help out connie with the display cases. it takes me a good 30 minutes to get everything up... i don't realize until very late that she wanted them up so that the "fund allocation people" could see the sort of projects that all their spending has helped to create. shit. after i'm done i don't do much of anything in class. fuck. we take the usual smoke break a little...

slow days, slow days. i'm tired as fuck. 104 was absolutely, positively sad. we worked on our projects, or didn't. me and the boys took a break to the cafeteria. i got the ecc special. mmm... like an egg mcmuffin. and then at the end of class, there was a debate about religion and all that jazz. it was interesting, yet ridiculous. argh! 101 was more of the same boring madness. pam is great, but it was just way drawn out. stephanie did not show up, but i did get a chance to see mary. ah, heaven. jamie came in late and sat next to me. she looked tired as fuck too. jeanne ditched high school, but came to ecc... interesting. we then went and took a little 20min smoke break. everyone then basically left, but i waited with shannon until the bus came. i went home and passed out for 2 hours, ate cereal, and then came back to ecc. it was pouring like a motherfucker today. saw an accident. now i'm in class with mary ann. hanna is sitting behind me. wink wink. i swear...

ah, the usual 15 minutes late to 100 , but as usual i was not in trouble. got very minimal work done, spending some money and time at the copy machine. then, at 11:30a, we went for a smoke break, that would last 45min. it turns out that ryan is also a virgo, which i guessed, and i guess that brandon is a libra, although i couldn't figure him out. we told some stories, but nothing too exciting. eh, just a boring day today. hrumph. i'm guessing more of the same to come in 204 . hopefully stephanie will keep me awake.

poo poo weather. in 104 i talked to rosemary for a little bit. she's warming up i think. we didn't do much of anything... just watched some samurai jack and i finished my project for 101 . brian, tom, and i went to get coffee, not much excitement there. tom and i talked about hanging with each other's crews... so apparently, if i bring the asian women, he'll bring the anglos. wink, wink!? after class, i went downstairs for a smoke break with the kids. i got jamie to give me a kiss on the cheek. she's just too adorable. damn. in 101 , pam gave a speech about logos and we turned our frame ads in. class was over in about 15 minutes. but she did give us an assignment, so a couple of us stayed (shannon, jeanne, melissa, jo ann). anyways, melissa's long distance boyfriend, geoff was around, but i guess no one really wanted to talk to him. he seems like a nice enough guy, so whatever. but i found out that melissa met him over the internet, so there must be so...

missed sunday by a couple of minutes. btw. why has the weather been so shitty? saturday started off pretty lazy-like. i started moving around 1pm or so. did some laundry and got ready for winston's wedding reception in alsip. i drove down there a little late and walked in the hall right after the wedding party was announced. jen and rj are always great conversation. dada is 20 freakin' years old already?!? the whole family looks great and it's great to be around some people i haven't seen in a long fucking time. little jennilyn is so cute, but that's not enough to get me to stay. i was kinda hoping that there would be some cutie latinas walking around, but no such luck. how about some cutie filipinas? not really. so i decided to leave around 9pm so that i wouldn't miss more than half of the concert. well, it turns out that i only missed oakenfold. but luckily, that wasn't the best part of triple crown . i got in about 30 minutes before the chemical ...

on the surface of our one track minds, we hear 420 and always end up thinking the same fucking thing... puff, puff give . happy 420, friends.

so last night , danny belmont and i went to the big city to meet up with chuck, nate, kiran, and her half filipino friend, lindey. we met up at borderline for some drinky poo and waited for our 10:30 reservation at blue fin. some freaky cat was out side motioning at lindey, remarking that she had big boobs. nice. at blue fin, we met up with kiran's friend hanna, who became our server. apparently, she is filipino to. so then we eat some killer sushi and what not, and chuck gets a call from roy saying that he's going over to thirteen with carol, al, and ergelin. we finish dinner and head over, and guess what, the bouncer lets me in without carding me?!? strange and flattering. does he know me? dj mig was spinning at thirteen and we popped over and busted a few hellos. next thing you know, kathy uzelac is in the house, with her friend... sandy? or something. dan, thankfully, ends up talking to kathy for a long time, which is great because i just wasn't in the mood to catch ...

well, i didn't have to go in today, but i decided to get the outline done for my project in pam's class. of course the fact that the kids were gonna be there was an added bonus and more likely the main reason i went. nice to hang with the kids. had a nice smoke break with jamie, helped cassie with her project. nick, shannon, and jeanne got me a meatball sub. i finished some of my project. nick is working on some clock he plans to hang at his pad in the city. he's asking all of us to draw in it. nothing major went on today. it was just nice to see everyone. hmmm... who's that cutie in the airbrushing class next door? interesting. tonight danny boy and i are heading to the big city... who knows what's gonna happen.

yay! finally i get a chance to talk to jamie again. such a sweetheart. i was beginning to think that she was cranky. 100 was pretty fun today. we came in 15min late, but didn't miss anything. critique was pretty cool... as the class was very nice about my piece. the highlights include nick's mystery fruit, a lime i think. i was doing my best to hide the fact that he had no idea what it was himself. a quince, a comquiat? also, jamie's "the great oak" was hilarious. not only did she put the text into her piece, she also had some really jacked up bead. funny shit. all in all great work from the whole class. smoking break was even better than all the laugh riots going on in class. i pulled a roy and guessed 4 signs. shannon - taurus, nick - virgo, jeanne - cancer, jamie - gemini. i had a hard time getting cassie and melissa, both capricorns... who's a capricorn? it was good bonding time... a true zen experience. my homework is to come back on monday and share...

so check this shit. today, i walk into 203 and guess who's sitting behind my normal seat... yup, the girl i've been staring at all semester... the teacher's daughter... hanna. nice. too bad that i'm too scared to look over her way. she's pretty cute. oh wait. there's just one thing... um, nevermind. we're out early, so i'm peace out! time for dawson's creek, muthafuckas!

i showed up about 7 minutes late to 104 today. crap. i didn't get in with enough time to mount my project. it's cool though, as i think tommy won't take off points. critique went well and rosemary even spoke today. she has a great project going, in fact she's got some sweet stuff from other classes... in fact, she is sweet stuff! i was a little nervous about 101 but luckily, pam said it was okay that we didn't have our final projects done. sweet. stephanie thinks that i should really talk to mary and she even said that mary was looking at me while we were doing our write ups. ahhh. is she just fucking with me? i can count two times that mary and i caught each others' eyes. what will i do? good times with brandon, jeanne, and nick. just a bunch of smokers being complete slackers and me being a complete goofball. i was doing the planet of the apes thing on the garbage can outside.

shit. it's supposedly 83 degrees in some parts of illinois today. it feels wonderful. it's a great day to pimp in the del sol. i came to school at like 7:30 this morning so i could finish my 100 project... the artichokes. as it turns out, so many people didn't show up that we didn't have the critique. that's pretty fucked up. no penalties either, but those who were finished got some extra credit. the only kids in today were brandon, jeanne, shanny, and melissa. everyone else just took the period off i guess. we ended up taking a long break, as usual, sitting in the warm spring sun. it was a little breezy out, but it felt really nice. one funny story is that i was talking to brandon about that cutie latina chick with the pony tail and he told me to point her out sometime... as we left for the break, i saw her and i pointed and whispered, "that's her!" just my luck, she turns and sees me and i run away, like a little baby. carol isn't in this w...

yet again, another beautiful day. hot and muggy. i came in late to 104 but as soon as i settled in, i was working hard on my project. talked to rosemary a little bit, she's too cute. and of course, i was the only sucker who brought cds to class, so everyone thought i was a freak for playing bjork. luckily, when i played punk rock, tommy wanted a copy, so he agreed that he wouldn't count me late for today. cool. and then there was 101 . apparently, pam's dog got hit by a car and so she had to take him to the vet. well, i'm not sure if that's true or not, but i ended up staying in class anyways, working on my artichoke project for tina's class. it's cool though, because mary showed up for a second, so i got a chance to see her today. also, stephanie and melissa kept me company, so it wasn't too boring. oh btw, another one bites the dust... i gave melissa the story about how i ended up at ecc. cryke.

nice day. beautiful day. so last night... saturday i met up with chuck and we ate at some cajun restaurant in arlington heights. great crawfish etiouffe (sp?), but anyways... it took a little bit to get to the city, but we got to the apartment and watched the opening segment of snl. the rock sucks. so around 11pm, we hit bar thirteen and meet up with ciara and the crew. jamie and emer, jenny and kristine, chris and steve, and a little later, melanie,tam, rebecca, and regina showed up. all in all, a fun relaxing time. the bartenders sucked, slow as fuck. but i got in some good conversations with melanie, stared openly at tam's boobs, and danced with rebecca and regina. ciara's sister was giving me the eye and so i gave her some smiles back. the biggest disappointment was not seeing ann. so crap. what a waste. today was cool though, because the weather was beautiful. chuck and i walked to north side and met up with jim and roy. we had a nice brunch with our favorite s...

so yesterday was shite. stayed in and watched the korean gem... "shiri". it was crap. i gave it a "c", a "c" for crap! maybe it is the greatest grossing korean movie of all time and that's great, but it doesn't change the fact that it's crap. this afternoon i went to the library to do research for my marketing class. lots of cuties roaming around. knowing my luck, they're probably 13 year olds. sick. when i got home, the del sol was supposedly fixed. so i took it out for a spin (so that i could return shiri) with the top down. it's not fixed. they just resurfaced the break pads, plus i still need to give her an oil change. shit. i'm about to bleach my hair into the unatural orange-gold that i enjoy so much. hopefully i get a chance to show some pretty ladies at thirteen tonight. i think ann is supposed to be there... will i talk to her tonight? tune in tomorrow for what i fear will be shitty news. ah yes, always good to th...

crap. missed a day again. not like i did anything thursday night. thursday well, i didn't do much of anything wednesday night either. dawson's creek was a laugh riot. i must have clapped at every commercial. i did take a valerian root pill right before i went to bed however, and i'm guessing that's why i woke up at 10:30am this morning. by the time i got to 100 , it was around 11:45... usually around the time the kids and i take a little smoke break. to my dismay, no one was outside so i ventured to class, anticipating a lecture followed by me cowering with empty excuses. it didn't happen. i ran in, put my stuff down, and ran to the artograph where i traced the photocopied pictures of artichokes shannon bought me. cassie came by and she smelled great. happy vanilla day to me. stephanie came in too and we made plans to have another late lunch at ihop. unfortunately, the kids left while i was getting into my work, so i didn't really get to speak with them...

104 why can't rosemary talk? she's so pretty that i'm afraid to look at her because she might catch me staring. her smile is so bright that i can see it in the corner of my eye, while i'm making sure not to look her way. i played my mix cd to the class and of course it had mixed reviews. now everyone thinks i'm stranger than i already was. 101 came in 10 minutes late... i'm such a slacker around the kids. mary was looking pretty nice in her pink top. i really hope i get to talk to her one of these days. the forecast looks cloudy. shannon was wondering if i would call her "girlfriend" again, i told her that she had to smell like vanilla. cassie did, so today she was my new girlfriend. class got out at 12 today, so i spent 40 minutes outside with shannon and jeanne. as they left to get on the bus, shannon asked if i had another class and i told her that i just liked hanging out with 'em. they both smiled and did the "awww" thing. ho...

ah. early afternoon and i'm just starting to wake up. tina's class was spent in the usual fashion. me and the kids goofing off and talking nonsense. there is continuous banter about brandon's friend's brother... "oh, john." shannon was wearing vanilla lotion and it reminded me of old times. now the indside joke is me calling shanny my girlfriend. every day i grow more fond of these kids. it's gonna be hard not seeing them after this semester is over.

damn. i haven't blogged all weekend... must be a sign of a busy social schedule. or maybe i was just lazy. i'll opt for a combo of the two. here's a recap. thursday night the night began kind of late. chuck, dave, roy, and i went over to the lava lounge to catch a couple drinks. dave actually wanted to get a "special" muffin from the strange old woman who shows up every now and then. i tried one a week prior, so i knew that they were legit. she's a slick one, the muffin lady. she has a basket of baked goods, but when you pay her, she reaches into her mysterious purse for the plastic wrapped pastry. anyways, we left too early to see her (12:00am), but we had a great conversation about relationships (particularly dave's) and religion. ah, what a bunch of nerds. friday night most of the kids went to mia francesca's to eat savory italian and discuss chris's big news. the news? chris is planning to buy a condo in the heart of downtown c...

finally... the week is over. whew. back to the weekend. and back to some sleeping. i'm beginning to sound like an old man, but i've really just been overwhelmed with projects as of late. well, today was a good day because i was able to catch an early dinner with stephanie... at my favorite local ecc hangout, ihop... with my favorite server, jennifer. kinda nice finally not having to eat alone, something that jennifer immediately pointed out as she took our order. i just don't know if it's a good thing or a bad thing. on one hand, jennifer remembers me. but on the other, she's seen me there alone quite often. she made a great comment after i asked if i could bum a smoke... "see... he's always forgetting something. last time it was a lighter, this time it's cigarettes... next time he'll probably forget his lips." interesting, very interesting. i think she likes me. and stephanie... well, she's a down girl, but she's got a man and i...

crap, i know it's late, but i forgot to mention that yesterday was 04.03.02, which makes me laugh.

how did i make it through the day? i must've yawned 47 times today. i finally caught up with all of my art projects. i'm just hoping that after tonight i'll be caught up with my sleep. today was a 9. i had some conversation with the two quiet chicks who sit in the back... well sort of. ah, who am i kidding... i think i said "hey" and they just smiled. i'm a sucker for the blue eyes, or maybe just a sucker in general. oh, so there was this great moment in critique today. me and the kids play that circle game in class. the one where you make a circle with your index and thumb, and you try to get people to look at it so that you can slug them twice (then wipe). well, if you know the game, then you know that if a person breaks the circle with their finger, you're the one who gets slugged. in any case, if you don't know what i'm talking about, i'll explain some other time. so, after going through my critique i walked back to my seat and tried t...

home again. safe and sound. my thoughts fall backwards into her eyes. an image of a laughing smile makes me wish things i cannot possibly have. and again i realize why i love school... i keep getting older and the girls stay the same age. well, not really, but, well yeah, really... shoot.

the beginning of a legacy ah... okay, for real now. this is the beginning of a new chapter in pico .plan writing. a daily injection of mundane thoughts that i feel the need to expel. i don't know where this will lead or where it will end, but i enjoy the thought of blogging on a frequent basis... anywhere. automobile crisis and boredom i'm stuck at ecc (woe is me), and i don't have anyone to smile at... except that girl at the other side of the computer lab, but she's not facing me, and every time she turns my way, my eyes divert back to the screen. sigh. who leaves their headlights on anymore? just me.

i'm so sleepy. but it's always good to see her smile and make her blush. ooo ooo! she is too cute!